1 00:00:30,696 --> 00:00:31,947 Newborn. 2 00:00:36,494 --> 00:00:37,786 I open my eyes. 3 00:00:44,126 --> 00:00:45,377 I melt. 4 00:00:51,425 --> 00:00:52,926 Into the eternal night. 5 00:01:04,730 --> 00:01:06,022 A spark. 6 00:01:12,280 --> 00:01:14,073 I fall into the flame. 7 00:01:49,984 --> 00:01:51,735 You brought me out of the shadows. 8 00:02:03,080 --> 00:02:04,790 You lifted me from the ground. 9 00:02:09,170 --> 00:02:10,754 Brought me back to life. 10 00:03:18,531 --> 00:03:20,032 What is she dreaming of? 11 00:03:24,704 --> 00:03:26,205 How calm she is. 12 00:03:30,042 --> 00:03:31,334 In love. 13 00:03:39,051 --> 00:03:40,677 Forever at peace. 14 00:04:37,610 --> 00:04:39,403 We climbed the steps... 15 00:04:46,285 --> 00:04:47,619 to the Wonder. 16 00:07:07,593 --> 00:07:09,177 It's coming in. 17 00:07:21,565 --> 00:07:23,942 Love makes us one. 18 00:07:28,572 --> 00:07:29,781 Two... 19 00:07:31,992 --> 00:07:33,326 one. 20 00:07:48,842 --> 00:07:50,301 I in you. 21 00:07:53,973 --> 00:07:55,265 You in me. 22 00:07:56,934 --> 00:07:58,143 Momma? 23 00:07:59,061 --> 00:08:03,561 Why are you unhappy? 24 00:08:09,947 --> 00:08:11,573 I'm not. 25 00:08:25,462 --> 00:08:27,964 I'd never hoped to love again. 26 00:08:34,930 --> 00:08:36,473 I'll go wherever you go. 27 00:08:43,480 --> 00:08:45,273 Tatiana, look how cute she is. 28 00:08:46,692 --> 00:08:48,318 You want a little sister like that? 29 00:08:49,611 --> 00:08:50,903 How old is she? 30 00:08:51,196 --> 00:08:52,238 Three months. 31 00:09:01,457 --> 00:09:04,001 If I left you because you didn't want to marry me, 32 00:09:04,877 --> 00:09:06,628 it would mean I didn't love you. 33 00:09:11,550 --> 00:09:12,926 I don't expect anything. 34 00:09:13,969 --> 00:09:16,304 Just to go a little of our way together. 35 00:09:24,855 --> 00:09:26,731 Stop being so serious! 36 00:09:37,910 --> 00:09:39,077 You understand? 37 00:09:39,578 --> 00:09:42,247 He's asking if you want to come and live in the United States. 38 00:10:26,583 --> 00:10:28,042 My sweet love. 39 00:10:33,090 --> 00:10:34,216 At last. 40 00:10:55,362 --> 00:10:56,738 My hope. 41 00:11:07,082 --> 00:11:08,458 How I loved you. 42 00:12:47,599 --> 00:12:49,225 How long have you been here? 43 00:12:52,104 --> 00:12:53,230 A couple of months. 44 00:12:54,189 --> 00:12:55,815 How do you like it so far? 45 00:12:57,359 --> 00:12:58,485 I like it. 46 00:12:58,694 --> 00:13:00,654 Do you have any children? 47 00:13:00,821 --> 00:13:02,614 I have a daughter. 48 00:13:02,948 --> 00:13:04,157 She's 10. 49 00:13:05,784 --> 00:13:09,078 I bet it's hard being a single mom. I know my daughter's a... 50 00:13:09,246 --> 00:13:12,999 little younger, but it would be fun for them to get together... 51 00:13:13,333 --> 00:13:16,669 It's kind of a hard age to move away. 52 00:13:55,709 --> 00:13:57,377 A land so calm. 53 00:14:03,175 --> 00:14:04,426 Honest. 54 00:14:11,433 --> 00:14:12,684 Rich. 55 00:14:24,654 --> 00:14:26,072 If you love me, 56 00:14:27,866 --> 00:14:29,492 there's nothing else I need. 57 00:14:37,000 --> 00:14:38,418 You spoke little. 58 00:14:41,713 --> 00:14:45,133 But you were an incredibly loving man. 59 00:14:53,100 --> 00:14:56,103 Okay, what are we missing? 60 00:14:59,689 --> 00:15:02,566 There's tons of stuff. It's super clean. 61 00:15:12,577 --> 00:15:15,955 Everything is beautiful here. 62 00:15:16,206 --> 00:15:18,082 Look how clean everything is. 63 00:15:39,688 --> 00:15:41,940 Are you going to marry her? 64 00:15:42,107 --> 00:15:44,317 She has pretty hair. 65 00:15:44,901 --> 00:15:47,320 Pretty hands. 66 00:15:48,071 --> 00:15:49,947 You guys might get rich together. 67 00:15:51,074 --> 00:15:53,493 She can even make drinks. 68 00:15:54,369 --> 00:15:57,830 It'll be great. You'll be my stepdad. 69 00:16:59,017 --> 00:17:00,268 What's going on here? 70 00:17:00,435 --> 00:17:02,186 We're doing a little remedial work. 71 00:17:02,604 --> 00:17:03,938 Remedial work? 72 00:17:05,565 --> 00:17:06,649 We're looking to make sure there's no toxins... 73 00:17:06,816 --> 00:17:11,316 I got stuff on my house. Kids acting strange. 74 00:17:13,907 --> 00:17:18,407 Sometimes we see tar coming out in the cracks in the patio. 75 00:17:20,872 --> 00:17:23,124 The neighbors here, they had their house in escrow. 76 00:17:23,291 --> 00:17:25,126 They pulled out. 77 00:17:26,878 --> 00:17:27,795 The buyers pulled out. 78 00:17:27,963 --> 00:17:29,297 Yeah. 79 00:17:32,300 --> 00:17:33,551 That's too bad. 80 00:17:33,802 --> 00:17:36,971 The reports from the lab came in. It showed... 81 00:17:37,514 --> 00:17:42,014 the presence of lead and cadmium in the surface soil and in the dust in the schoolyards... 82 00:18:03,915 --> 00:18:05,875 What is this love that loves us? 83 00:18:15,760 --> 00:18:17,720 That comes from nowhere. 84 00:18:21,641 --> 00:18:23,184 From all around. 85 00:18:26,396 --> 00:18:27,730 The sky. 86 00:18:30,650 --> 00:18:32,652 You, cloud. 87 00:18:36,281 --> 00:18:37,949 You love me, too. 88 00:19:26,247 --> 00:19:27,289 I've had it blonde... 89 00:19:27,457 --> 00:19:30,168 and brown and pink and red. 90 00:19:31,211 --> 00:19:32,712 Me, I could never dye my hair... 91 00:19:32,879 --> 00:19:34,672 unless my mom says I can. 92 00:19:36,007 --> 00:19:39,010 My mom doesn't care. My mom's pretty cool. 93 00:20:03,201 --> 00:20:05,578 After school you took her to swim. 94 00:20:12,127 --> 00:20:14,629 Taught her the names of the wildflowers. 95 00:20:24,097 --> 00:20:26,224 You called her your daughter. 96 00:20:29,894 --> 00:20:31,437 I'm writing my thoughts. 97 00:20:38,653 --> 00:20:39,987 You love me? 98 00:20:43,241 --> 00:20:44,575 Of course. 99 00:20:46,703 --> 00:20:49,330 I don't have any friends. 100 00:20:52,083 --> 00:20:54,001 In Paris I had lots. 101 00:21:18,443 --> 00:21:21,529 We need to leave. 102 00:21:22,071 --> 00:21:23,363 Both of us. 103 00:21:27,410 --> 00:21:29,370 There's something missing. 104 00:21:40,965 --> 00:21:42,299 There is a love... 105 00:21:43,301 --> 00:21:47,801 that's like a stream that goes dry when rain no longer feeds it. 106 00:21:49,224 --> 00:21:50,850 But there is a love... 107 00:21:51,768 --> 00:21:54,729 that is like a spring coming up from the earth. 108 00:21:55,897 --> 00:21:58,608 The first is human love, the second is divine love. 109 00:21:58,858 --> 00:22:00,943 And has its source above. 110 00:22:02,904 --> 00:22:07,404 The husband is to love his wife as Christ loved the church. And give... 111 00:22:07,951 --> 00:22:12,451 his life for her. He does not find her lovely... 112 00:22:13,790 --> 00:22:15,541 he makes her lovely. 113 00:22:17,168 --> 00:22:20,087 But there is a grace that comes in such a marriage. 114 00:22:20,630 --> 00:22:22,798 I got married when I was 17. 115 00:22:25,009 --> 00:22:29,509 I had a child. But my husband started running after other women. 116 00:22:33,643 --> 00:22:36,812 He left us and went to the Canary Islands. 117 00:22:38,523 --> 00:22:42,276 Other priests have told me that in the eyes of the church... 118 00:22:42,443 --> 00:22:46,943 I'm still married to that man. They said I couldn't have the... 119 00:22:49,409 --> 00:22:50,618 sacraments. 120 00:22:56,708 --> 00:22:58,459 I want to be a wife. 121 00:23:17,937 --> 00:23:20,230 I don't even know why I was with him in the first place. 122 00:23:21,524 --> 00:23:23,859 Then it sunk in. 123 00:23:26,404 --> 00:23:30,904 I didn't really want to tell my dad because I knew he would start yelling. 124 00:23:35,747 --> 00:23:37,415 I'd never give her up. 125 00:23:38,499 --> 00:23:39,583 Ever. 126 00:23:57,185 --> 00:23:59,061 Everywhere you're present. 127 00:24:04,609 --> 00:24:06,485 And still I can't see you. 128 00:24:18,706 --> 00:24:20,374 You're within me. 129 00:24:23,836 --> 00:24:25,546 Around me. 130 00:24:30,134 --> 00:24:32,302 And I have no experience of you. 131 00:24:37,016 --> 00:24:38,934 Not as I once did. 132 00:24:44,565 --> 00:24:46,733 Why don't I hold on to what I've found? 133 00:24:53,491 --> 00:24:55,284 My heart is cold. 134 00:24:58,830 --> 00:25:00,164 Hard. 135 00:25:42,248 --> 00:25:43,958 I write on water... 136 00:25:45,543 --> 00:25:47,336 what I dare not say. 137 00:27:04,288 --> 00:27:05,998 I try to cradle you. 138 00:27:09,043 --> 00:27:10,711 To make you contain yourself. 139 00:27:18,761 --> 00:27:20,637 An avalanche of tenderness. 140 00:28:10,313 --> 00:28:11,981 The world so far away. 141 00:28:16,110 --> 00:28:17,694 A ghost. 142 00:28:21,532 --> 00:28:23,075 Ashes. 143 00:29:31,560 --> 00:29:35,647 You see that red band in the sky right there? And you see that blue... 144 00:29:35,940 --> 00:29:39,735 down below it? That's the earth's shadow on the atmosphere. 145 00:29:42,947 --> 00:29:47,447 Look. You see what I'm talking about? Stop for a second. You see? 146 00:30:04,927 --> 00:30:05,552 Look at me. 147 00:30:05,720 --> 00:30:07,888 I'm not looking at you. 148 00:30:08,431 --> 00:30:10,182 I don't want to look at you. 149 00:30:10,891 --> 00:30:12,100 You're not my father. 150 00:30:12,268 --> 00:30:14,478 You think you're my father. You're not. 151 00:30:14,645 --> 00:30:15,771 Tatiana... 152 00:30:16,605 --> 00:30:19,691 You're annoying me. 153 00:31:54,745 --> 00:31:56,913 Father, I'm going to pray for you. 154 00:31:57,331 --> 00:31:58,999 Thank you very much. 155 00:31:59,166 --> 00:32:01,751 So you will receive the gift of joy. 156 00:32:03,587 --> 00:32:04,796 Me? 157 00:32:06,507 --> 00:32:08,383 Because you're so unhappy. 158 00:32:16,475 --> 00:32:18,935 Do you get lonely all the time, or most of the time when... 159 00:32:19,103 --> 00:32:20,604 ain't nobody around? 160 00:32:25,693 --> 00:32:27,528 What you got to say about it? 161 00:32:28,529 --> 00:32:30,322 You gotta have a little more excitement. 162 00:32:30,489 --> 00:32:33,533 Just like when me and you are around, and there ain't nobody around. 163 00:32:33,742 --> 00:32:37,078 Hey! The power hits you, brother. It always hits me. 164 00:32:37,246 --> 00:32:40,874 You can just say, hey, power, and it hits me. Hits me before I can get it out. 165 00:32:43,252 --> 00:32:44,503 See, the devil don't know what I'm saying. 166 00:32:44,670 --> 00:32:46,630 And you won't know, and I won't know. 167 00:32:48,048 --> 00:32:52,548 I can feel the warmth of the light, brother. That's spiritual. 168 00:32:54,263 --> 00:32:58,642 I'm feeling more than just natural light. Feeling the spiritual light, see? 169 00:32:59,101 --> 00:33:01,686 I can almost touch that light, coming right from the sky. 170 00:33:10,613 --> 00:33:12,031 The parish has grown a lot. 171 00:33:12,781 --> 00:33:17,281 We really need more room for the community to get together. 172 00:33:17,912 --> 00:33:21,916 We have plays, we have dinners, we have parties. 173 00:33:22,166 --> 00:33:26,295 We have CCD in the parish hall. 174 00:33:39,141 --> 00:33:41,434 How long will you hide yourself? 175 00:33:43,687 --> 00:33:45,647 If I would have known it was there... 176 00:33:51,612 --> 00:33:52,571 Let me come to you. 177 00:33:56,450 --> 00:33:57,993 Let me not pretend. 178 00:33:58,911 --> 00:34:01,330 Everything that's happening... 179 00:34:05,251 --> 00:34:07,503 Pretend to feelings I don't have. 180 00:34:45,291 --> 00:34:48,294 Man is in revolt against God. 181 00:34:49,378 --> 00:34:52,589 The prophet Hosea saw in the breakdown of his marriage... 182 00:34:53,257 --> 00:34:57,757 The spiritual infidelity of his people. In that broken marriage, we see the pattern of our world. 183 00:35:00,514 --> 00:35:03,099 We wish to live inside the safety of the laws. 184 00:35:04,018 --> 00:35:08,518 We fear to choose. Jesus insists on choice. 185 00:35:09,732 --> 00:35:13,318 The one thing he condemns utterly is avoiding the choice. 186 00:35:14,528 --> 00:35:16,780 To choose is to commit yourself, 187 00:35:17,364 --> 00:35:21,864 and to commit yourself is to run the risk of failure, the risk of... 188 00:35:22,745 --> 00:35:27,207 sin, the risk of betrayal. But Jesus can deal with all of those. 189 00:35:28,334 --> 00:35:30,461 Forgiveness he never denies us. 190 00:35:31,879 --> 00:35:34,756 The man who makes a mistake can repent. 191 00:35:36,425 --> 00:35:38,009 But the man who hesitates... 192 00:35:38,344 --> 00:35:42,181 who does nothing, who buries his talent... 193 00:35:43,057 --> 00:35:46,393 in the earth ...with him, he can do nothing. 194 00:35:54,234 --> 00:35:56,069 My visa has expired. 195 00:36:04,828 --> 00:36:06,955 We need to face the facts. 196 00:36:30,354 --> 00:36:32,564 If you'd asked me to stay, 197 00:36:36,026 --> 00:36:37,318 I would have. 198 00:38:32,267 --> 00:38:33,977 You thought we had forever. 199 00:38:37,856 --> 00:38:39,440 That time didn't exist. 200 00:39:10,597 --> 00:39:14,892 These guys live around here, I mean, they're perfectly happy until somebody comes... 201 00:39:15,060 --> 00:39:17,020 around asking questions. 202 00:39:17,354 --> 00:39:20,690 And it makes everybody nervous... 203 00:39:23,235 --> 00:39:25,737 Ain't this is our property? Can't we do what we want with it? 204 00:39:26,071 --> 00:39:28,823 I tell my husband to get us out of here, but where we gonna go? 205 00:39:35,914 --> 00:39:39,250 They got all these lawyers, these big time lawyers, and we can't get no help. 206 00:39:41,336 --> 00:39:42,920 Even the dog is acting funny. 207 00:40:15,621 --> 00:40:17,873 We've been on this house for a long time... 208 00:41:46,128 --> 00:41:48,213 You're out at the ranch up there? 209 00:41:50,007 --> 00:41:51,258 I've been there for some time. 210 00:41:51,425 --> 00:41:52,926 You told me about her. 211 00:41:53,385 --> 00:41:54,594 I have to look at... 212 00:41:55,262 --> 00:41:57,389 some of these creeks and rivers... 213 00:41:57,556 --> 00:42:00,016 The woman you met at the hospital. 214 00:42:00,517 --> 00:42:03,186 You talk to my sister, right? 215 00:42:08,066 --> 00:42:10,818 Someone you'd known in your youth. 216 00:42:16,033 --> 00:42:17,576 I'm going over to the 217 00:42:18,785 --> 00:42:20,328 tall grass prairie now. 218 00:42:36,678 --> 00:42:41,178 Ranch is going into receivership. It's going... bankrupt. 219 00:42:46,438 --> 00:42:47,897 And he claimed... 220 00:42:48,065 --> 00:42:50,817 he didn't want to have kids while he was in school. 221 00:42:52,152 --> 00:42:53,695 She hadn't changed. 222 00:42:54,321 --> 00:42:58,821 So many student loans, gambling debts, and this ranch that's falling apart. 223 00:43:03,288 --> 00:43:04,956 I caught you on the right day. 224 00:43:09,461 --> 00:43:10,795 Kind. 225 00:44:58,236 --> 00:45:00,905 I had a child... 226 00:45:03,366 --> 00:45:04,700 a little girl. 227 00:45:13,960 --> 00:45:15,294 She died. 228 00:45:18,840 --> 00:45:23,340 My father... said to read Romans. 229 00:45:27,724 --> 00:45:30,393 All things work together for good. 230 00:45:34,105 --> 00:45:35,564 He believed that. 231 00:45:38,652 --> 00:45:40,403 Will you pray with me? 232 00:45:52,749 --> 00:45:54,292 I had no faith. 233 00:46:00,006 --> 00:46:01,173 You knew. 234 00:46:06,179 --> 00:46:07,722 Were you afraid? 235 00:46:15,105 --> 00:46:17,982 My mother says I'm chasing moonbeams. 236 00:46:19,025 --> 00:46:20,526 Is that what she said? 237 00:46:23,238 --> 00:46:27,738 I told her I'd rather have a moonbeam than the life I had before. 238 00:46:54,728 --> 00:46:56,312 Do you want this? 239 00:47:02,902 --> 00:47:04,570 Do you know what you want? 240 00:47:11,036 --> 00:47:15,415 I can't afford to make mistakes with men anymore. 241 00:47:24,299 --> 00:47:28,799 I want you to come more often. Can you? 242 00:47:34,184 --> 00:47:36,019 I've been waiting for you. 243 00:47:38,730 --> 00:47:40,106 I felt wild. 244 00:47:41,149 --> 00:47:42,525 I don't know. What are you laughing at? 245 00:47:43,109 --> 00:47:44,151 You. 246 00:47:44,319 --> 00:47:44,944 Me? 247 00:47:45,111 --> 00:47:49,406 You make me laugh. You make me happy. 248 00:47:57,624 --> 00:47:59,167 You took me. 249 00:48:09,344 --> 00:48:10,386 No. 250 00:48:23,525 --> 00:48:24,651 Girl. 251 00:48:29,155 --> 00:48:30,364 Little girl. 252 00:48:36,079 --> 00:48:37,163 Fool. 253 00:49:29,674 --> 00:49:31,175 Here I am. 254 00:49:43,062 --> 00:49:44,354 Yes. 255 00:50:36,866 --> 00:50:38,576 I feel stripped bare. 256 00:50:46,084 --> 00:50:48,044 I don't know where I'm going. 257 00:50:53,258 --> 00:50:55,885 I return to my apartment and collapse. 258 00:51:08,523 --> 00:51:10,316 I can't take it here anymore. 259 00:51:16,030 --> 00:51:17,364 Paris is dreadful. 260 00:51:25,039 --> 00:51:26,623 I don't see Tatiana. 261 00:51:30,211 --> 00:51:31,462 She's gone... 262 00:51:33,256 --> 00:51:34,674 to live with her father. 263 00:51:39,512 --> 00:51:41,388 I can't find a job. 264 00:51:47,937 --> 00:51:49,563 I want to come back to the States. 265 00:51:54,402 --> 00:51:56,445 I met someone who told me... 266 00:51:57,196 --> 00:51:59,740 he'd marry me so I could get a green card. 267 00:52:24,349 --> 00:52:25,350 Tell her. 268 00:54:16,794 --> 00:54:18,337 I trust you. 269 00:54:34,979 --> 00:54:36,563 I want to be your wife. 270 00:54:48,326 --> 00:54:49,827 I love you. 271 00:56:06,070 --> 00:56:07,571 Walk away. 272 00:56:17,039 --> 00:56:18,957 I thought I knew you. 273 00:56:24,797 --> 00:56:27,174 Now I don't think you ever were. 274 00:56:40,938 --> 00:56:42,856 What we had was nothing. 275 00:56:47,528 --> 00:56:49,404 You made it into nothing. 276 00:56:54,118 --> 00:56:55,410 Pleasure. 277 00:57:00,041 --> 00:57:01,250 Lust. 278 00:57:38,955 --> 00:57:41,999 Ma'am, if you'll come over here. Sir, if you'll be on this side, please. 279 00:57:43,250 --> 00:57:44,751 You all have rings for each other? 280 00:57:44,919 --> 00:57:49,419 To love, honor and cherish you. Be faithful only to you. 281 00:57:55,137 --> 00:57:57,097 As long as we both shall live. 282 00:57:58,766 --> 00:58:00,809 And I do promise before these witnesses... 283 00:58:01,560 --> 00:58:02,394 And I do promise before... 284 00:58:02,561 --> 00:58:03,603 these witnesses. 285 00:58:03,771 --> 00:58:05,898 To love, honor, and cherish you. 286 00:58:06,399 --> 00:58:08,692 To love, honor and cherish you. 287 00:58:08,859 --> 00:58:10,569 Be faithful only to you. 288 00:58:10,945 --> 00:58:12,905 Be faithful only to you. 289 00:58:13,698 --> 00:58:15,366 As long as we both shall live. 290 00:58:16,117 --> 00:58:18,494 As long as we both shall live. 291 00:58:52,945 --> 00:58:54,905 I feel so close to you... 292 00:58:58,367 --> 00:59:00,452 that I could almost touch you. 293 00:59:11,047 --> 00:59:13,591 There is always this invisible something... 294 00:59:15,843 --> 00:59:17,636 that I feel so strongly... 295 00:59:22,975 --> 00:59:24,726 which ties us so tightly together. 296 00:59:28,647 --> 00:59:30,315 I love this feeling... 297 00:59:31,108 --> 00:59:33,401 even if it makes me cry sometimes. 298 00:59:43,996 --> 00:59:46,248 It is so strong, this conviction... 299 00:59:47,833 --> 00:59:49,417 that I belong to you. 300 01:00:13,109 --> 01:00:16,153 Maybe you'd like me to stop telling you I love you. 301 01:00:21,283 --> 01:00:24,160 I know that strong feelings make you uneasy. 302 01:00:32,670 --> 01:00:34,672 Tell me if that's so. 303 01:01:46,702 --> 01:01:48,328 See my bracelet. 304 01:01:48,787 --> 01:01:50,663 It's pretty. Where's it from? 305 01:01:50,831 --> 01:01:53,500 How's everything there? 306 01:01:57,379 --> 01:01:59,381 You miss being here? 307 01:02:01,217 --> 01:02:03,093 It's great here. 308 01:02:04,511 --> 01:02:09,011 Honestly, at Dad's it's so much fun. 309 01:02:11,435 --> 01:02:13,186 Did the tooth fairy steal it? 310 01:02:14,271 --> 01:02:16,773 No, I'm the one who took it out. 311 01:02:17,900 --> 01:02:19,484 It didn't hurt? 312 01:02:25,991 --> 01:02:27,701 You're so pretty. 313 01:02:56,897 --> 01:02:58,565 Awaken the love. 314 01:03:01,110 --> 01:03:02,694 The divine presence... 315 01:03:04,989 --> 01:03:07,783 which sleeps in each man, each woman. 316 01:03:10,327 --> 01:03:14,827 You say... Christ said this... 317 01:03:15,082 --> 01:03:17,501 Christ said that. What do you say? 318 01:03:19,253 --> 01:03:23,753 And what you say, does it come from God within? 319 01:03:26,677 --> 01:03:28,095 Answer that... 320 01:03:28,470 --> 01:03:32,970 which is of God, in every woman, every man. 321 01:03:35,311 --> 01:03:39,811 Know each other in that love that never changes. 322 01:04:06,175 --> 01:04:10,675 I'd like to show you here on the monitor... this is the area of your uterus... 323 01:04:12,139 --> 01:04:15,225 and the IUD that you have in place there. 324 01:04:15,809 --> 01:04:20,309 We feel like one of the less risky procedures that we can do is to... 325 01:04:20,898 --> 01:04:22,524 remove this device. 326 01:04:22,691 --> 01:04:26,152 And see if those symptoms don't resolve. 327 01:04:26,862 --> 01:04:30,031 I think something that you and your husband... 328 01:04:30,199 --> 01:04:33,493 need to consider is with the absence of the IUD, 329 01:04:33,827 --> 01:04:37,831 is this a time that you might want to think about children? 330 01:04:38,165 --> 01:04:40,917 Or is there another means for contraception? 331 01:04:41,085 --> 01:04:43,796 So I don't need to have a hysterectomy? 332 01:04:44,838 --> 01:04:46,464 That's the good news. 333 01:04:49,593 --> 01:04:51,052 Thank you. 334 01:05:08,028 --> 01:05:09,863 Would you like to have children? 335 01:05:12,699 --> 01:05:13,908 Someday. 336 01:05:56,201 --> 01:05:59,078 God gave us marriage as a holy mystery... 337 01:06:00,497 --> 01:06:03,249 in which a man and woman are joined together... 338 01:06:04,501 --> 01:06:05,877 and become one. 339 01:06:07,629 --> 01:06:10,340 And with affection and tenderness... 340 01:06:10,883 --> 01:06:13,010 freely give themselves to each other. 341 01:06:14,678 --> 01:06:16,096 This ring I give you... 342 01:06:16,847 --> 01:06:19,599 Is a sign of our constant faith. 343 01:06:20,225 --> 01:06:22,227 Is a sign of our constant faith. 344 01:06:22,394 --> 01:06:23,853 And abiding love. 345 01:06:24,771 --> 01:06:26,189 And abiding love. 346 01:07:15,531 --> 01:07:16,615 Go. 347 01:08:02,661 --> 01:08:03,995 Where are we... 348 01:09:17,069 --> 01:09:21,114 when we're there? 349 01:09:26,370 --> 01:09:28,205 Why not always? 350 01:09:34,378 --> 01:09:35,796 Which is the truth? 351 01:09:39,132 --> 01:09:40,925 What we know up there? 352 01:09:44,346 --> 01:09:45,597 Or down here? 353 01:12:15,705 --> 01:12:17,081 We pray thy blessings upon them... 354 01:12:17,249 --> 01:12:19,167 and upon this food which we are about to eat. 355 01:12:26,424 --> 01:12:27,341 Would you like one? 356 01:13:05,255 --> 01:13:06,464 Alone. 357 01:13:13,346 --> 01:13:17,058 He just goes off... like that. 358 01:13:17,726 --> 01:13:19,811 I don't know where he goes. 359 01:13:22,814 --> 01:13:24,482 Leave while you can. 360 01:13:24,733 --> 01:13:26,776 Now that you're young. Beautiful. 361 01:13:27,903 --> 01:13:29,946 Your whole life in front of you. 362 01:13:36,912 --> 01:13:38,538 Live and do what you like. 363 01:13:40,290 --> 01:13:41,541 Life's a dream. 364 01:13:42,167 --> 01:13:44,169 In a dream you can't make mistakes. 365 01:13:46,296 --> 01:13:48,464 In a dream you can be... 366 01:13:49,007 --> 01:13:50,550 whatever you want. 367 01:13:52,010 --> 01:13:53,219 Anything. 368 01:13:55,722 --> 01:13:56,597 Leave this place. 369 01:13:56,765 --> 01:13:58,016 It's cramped. 370 01:13:58,224 --> 01:13:59,058 Small. 371 01:13:59,225 --> 01:14:01,143 There's nothing here. 372 01:14:01,311 --> 01:14:02,854 Look at their faces. 373 01:14:03,605 --> 01:14:04,772 False. 374 01:14:05,065 --> 01:14:06,608 All false. 375 01:14:08,026 --> 01:14:09,819 You're a little dreamer. 376 01:14:10,195 --> 01:14:14,695 You need to fly. 377 01:14:19,162 --> 01:14:21,873 You should be free. 378 01:14:22,666 --> 01:14:24,793 Listen to your heart. 379 01:14:29,339 --> 01:14:30,381 Dead? 380 01:14:36,805 --> 01:14:37,889 No, my bag! 381 01:14:38,056 --> 01:14:40,266 You're crazy! 382 01:14:40,475 --> 01:14:42,977 We'll get it later. 383 01:14:43,395 --> 01:14:45,063 When we come back. 384 01:14:48,608 --> 01:14:49,900 It's hidden. 385 01:14:50,068 --> 01:14:52,653 You don't need anything. 386 01:14:53,113 --> 01:14:54,614 You're free. 387 01:14:55,073 --> 01:14:56,532 We're gypsies. 388 01:15:06,167 --> 01:15:07,960 You're like me. 389 01:15:09,671 --> 01:15:11,255 A gypsy. 390 01:15:12,215 --> 01:15:13,883 I'm my own experiment. 391 01:15:14,050 --> 01:15:15,009 Come get me. 392 01:15:15,176 --> 01:15:17,261 I'm here. 393 01:15:17,637 --> 01:15:19,722 Where are the people? 394 01:15:20,098 --> 01:15:22,600 They're all dead. Nobody's here. Nothing. 395 01:15:23,518 --> 01:15:25,686 I want somebody to surprise me. 396 01:15:25,854 --> 01:15:28,606 Where are you people? 397 01:15:33,528 --> 01:15:35,488 What are you looking at? 398 01:15:37,574 --> 01:15:39,242 You think I'm a monster? 399 01:15:39,576 --> 01:15:41,160 An evil monster? 400 01:15:41,870 --> 01:15:42,829 A vampire? 401 01:15:42,996 --> 01:15:44,414 A witch? 402 01:15:51,713 --> 01:15:54,173 I want to break these chains... 403 01:15:55,842 --> 01:15:57,343 be free. 404 01:16:39,302 --> 01:16:40,803 Open me. 405 01:16:43,431 --> 01:16:44,974 Enter me. 406 01:16:57,237 --> 01:16:59,656 Show me how to love you. 407 01:17:09,249 --> 01:17:10,959 Why do we come back down? 408 01:17:51,207 --> 01:17:52,583 Things have gotten worse. 409 01:18:07,640 --> 01:18:09,516 In and out of prisons like this... 410 01:18:32,498 --> 01:18:36,001 I don't know what happened. I was drunk. 411 01:18:36,169 --> 01:18:37,545 If I had done this, 412 01:18:37,712 --> 01:18:41,215 I'm not saying I did, I might've, I could've. 413 01:18:43,343 --> 01:18:46,346 I'm asking for forgiveness, Father. 414 01:18:46,596 --> 01:18:51,096 I can't help myself. 415 01:18:51,559 --> 01:18:56,059 If you need me to kneel down, I'll kneel down. I want to be free. 416 01:19:00,276 --> 01:19:04,776 That sun is just right in my eyes. 417 01:19:08,660 --> 01:19:12,955 I can fight, I will fight. I can fight with my feet and hands. 418 01:19:13,122 --> 01:19:16,250 They think they're really about something, but they ain't. 419 01:19:57,917 --> 01:19:59,001 You gonna open that bible... 420 01:19:59,168 --> 01:20:00,627 and preach to me now? 421 01:20:13,975 --> 01:20:15,726 Intensely I seek you. 422 01:20:19,480 --> 01:20:21,482 My soul thirsts for you. 423 01:20:24,068 --> 01:20:25,402 Exhausted. 424 01:20:46,758 --> 01:20:49,051 Will you be like a stream that dries up? 425 01:20:50,345 --> 01:20:53,431 Lover boy! Where are you? 426 01:21:10,531 --> 01:21:12,115 Love is not only a feeling. 427 01:21:14,243 --> 01:21:18,743 Love is a duty. You shall love. Love is a command. 428 01:21:20,666 --> 01:21:23,919 And you say, I can't command my emotions. 429 01:21:24,670 --> 01:21:26,797 They come and go like clouds. 430 01:21:27,924 --> 01:21:31,052 To that, Christ says: you shall love... 431 01:21:32,011 --> 01:21:36,511 whether you like it or not. You fear your love has died. 432 01:21:42,146 --> 01:21:45,899 It perhaps is waiting to be transformed into something higher. 433 01:21:52,198 --> 01:21:53,699 We fight. 434 01:21:58,579 --> 01:22:00,372 Without knowing why. 435 01:22:22,103 --> 01:22:25,231 Weak people never bring anything to an end themselves. 436 01:22:28,067 --> 01:22:30,360 They wait for others to do it. 437 01:22:53,384 --> 01:22:55,677 How had hate come to take the place of love? 438 01:22:59,599 --> 01:23:02,685 My tender heart grown hard? 439 01:23:18,159 --> 01:23:20,077 Do you want me as a wife? 440 01:23:22,121 --> 01:23:23,247 A lover? 441 01:23:27,335 --> 01:23:28,669 Companion? 442 01:23:48,773 --> 01:23:50,566 He's killing me! 443 01:23:57,031 --> 01:23:58,157 I'm sorry. 444 01:24:26,477 --> 01:24:28,270 You want me to die? Here! 445 01:24:33,734 --> 01:24:35,152 Why don't you have them? 446 01:25:10,146 --> 01:25:11,689 I'm frightened. 447 01:25:39,508 --> 01:25:41,468 Why do you turn your back? 448 01:25:45,848 --> 01:25:47,975 All I see is destruction. 449 01:25:50,186 --> 01:25:51,645 Failure. 450 01:25:53,939 --> 01:25:55,190 Ruin. 451 01:25:57,818 --> 01:25:59,653 Give me your blessing, Father. 452 01:26:05,117 --> 01:26:06,743 I've hurt people. 453 01:26:13,626 --> 01:26:15,252 I know what I am. 454 01:26:40,986 --> 01:26:42,445 My God, 455 01:26:47,493 --> 01:26:49,328 what a cruel war. 456 01:26:57,461 --> 01:26:59,254 I find two women inside me. 457 01:27:06,929 --> 01:27:08,055 One... 458 01:27:09,473 --> 01:27:11,391 full of love for you. 459 01:27:16,731 --> 01:27:18,023 The other... 460 01:27:19,316 --> 01:27:22,319 pulls me down towards the earth. 461 01:27:49,889 --> 01:27:51,390 I thought you went away. 462 01:33:01,700 --> 01:33:03,034 Forgive me. 463 01:33:33,941 --> 01:33:35,359 Please. 464 01:35:19,671 --> 01:35:22,757 Don't take up with anybody during the first 6 months. 465 01:35:24,593 --> 01:35:26,636 Don't stop talking to people. 466 01:35:27,095 --> 01:35:30,223 That's the first mistake that I see people make in my practice. 467 01:35:31,308 --> 01:35:35,808 Sometimes you eat the bear, and sometimes the bear eats you. You can't feel sorry for yourself. 468 01:35:39,191 --> 01:35:43,320 Once we get her served that'll start the process. 469 01:35:44,446 --> 01:35:47,490 Because there's no children involved, this could be a fairly rapid... 470 01:35:47,658 --> 01:35:49,409 process, if that's what you want. 471 01:35:50,494 --> 01:35:53,079 I don't want you to lose hope. 472 01:36:17,354 --> 01:36:18,938 It's very hard to be the... 473 01:36:20,357 --> 01:36:22,901 one who loves less, the one who's stronger. 474 01:36:26,488 --> 01:36:30,988 You have to struggle with yourself. You have to struggle with your own... strength. 475 01:36:52,639 --> 01:36:54,140 Why? 476 01:37:12,826 --> 01:37:14,285 I saw you. 477 01:37:20,751 --> 01:37:22,043 Again. 478 01:37:31,553 --> 01:37:34,055 They are sending me away. I won't be here for long. 479 01:37:34,431 --> 01:37:36,433 They are sending me to western Kansas. 480 01:37:36,600 --> 01:37:37,267 Western Kansas? What... 481 01:37:37,434 --> 01:37:41,934 are you gonna do in western Kansas? A lot of people around here... 482 01:37:42,356 --> 01:37:43,940 are going to be missing you. 483 01:37:45,609 --> 01:37:48,987 We need people like you here in Bartlesville. 484 01:37:49,488 --> 01:37:52,741 To preach the gospel. That's why we have churches. 485 01:38:18,433 --> 01:38:20,226 Where are you leading me? 486 01:38:27,734 --> 01:38:29,986 Teach us where to seek you. 487 01:38:34,699 --> 01:38:39,199 I feel a lot of burning, you know... 488 01:38:54,553 --> 01:38:57,222 I pray but sometimes I don't hear him. 489 01:38:57,931 --> 01:38:59,641 I don't think he hears me. 490 01:39:04,729 --> 01:39:06,313 Christ, be with me. 491 01:39:11,069 --> 01:39:12,737 Christ before me. 492 01:39:20,787 --> 01:39:22,455 Christ behind me. 493 01:39:28,670 --> 01:39:30,213 Christ in me. 494 01:39:38,180 --> 01:39:39,681 Christ beneath me. 495 01:39:44,811 --> 01:39:46,437 Christ above me. 496 01:40:02,537 --> 01:40:04,121 Christ on my right. 497 01:40:09,002 --> 01:40:10,670 Christ on my left. 498 01:40:18,345 --> 01:40:20,138 Christ in the heart. 499 01:41:05,976 --> 01:41:07,477 Thirsting. 500 01:41:14,150 --> 01:41:15,734 We thirst. 501 01:41:48,893 --> 01:41:51,896 Flood our souls with your spirit and life... 502 01:41:59,112 --> 01:42:00,738 so completely... 503 01:42:03,366 --> 01:42:06,285 that our lives may only be a reflection of yours. 504 01:42:18,298 --> 01:42:20,341 Shine through us. 505 01:43:02,634 --> 01:43:04,427 Show us how to seek you. 506 01:43:11,810 --> 01:43:13,770 We were made to see you. 507 01:44:58,082 --> 01:44:59,958 I want to keep your name. 508 01:46:03,731 --> 01:46:05,482 Love that loves us... 509 01:46:12,490 --> 01:46:13,616 Thank you.